It’s that week again. Just when I think I might not be as teary as last year, my heart squeezes a little tighter, a solid lump lands in my throat and tears push their way out my eyes.
Sometimes it happens when I don’t even feel sad, but something inside of me knows the timing.
As I couldn’t get a sentence out after our Monday morning run, Karyn reminded me “Well, for the past six years this week is always been a hard one. It’s just tough.” She’s right.
It is tough. But since sadness hits me whenever it feels like it, I’m not going to wait up for it. Instead, I’ve spent tonight looking through photos of Chad with his friends, photos of us, and remembering how funny, goofy and happy he was.
November 28th doesn’t pass without thinking of Chad – but then again, neither does any other day.
Here are nine photos that capture moments and friendships that have such strong memories attached to them, they take me back and I can laugh at it all again.
After a half an hour of party plotting, Chad was scooped and tossed in to the North Shore Winter Club pool. My job was to get his cell phone before he went in…but I forgot.
Chad and my brother at a Keith Urban concert. (I don’t know why we went, but we did.)
His loud “eeeewwwwiiieee!” cowboy noises can be heard through this photo.
Our first (and only) camping trip. We stayed in his jeep.
The tent belonged to our friends.
(Can you hear his hisss?)
Laura, Chad & Matt as the leads in our Saturday night Rock Band group.
“Wanted, Dead or Alive” was a
fan Chad favourite.
Chad wore his grandfather’s fedora every. time.
Before I went back to college, Chad and I showed up to my send-off party separately, dressed like leprechauns.
Him, with questionable facial hair decisions.
Me, with bad hair decisions. No questions.
On a road trip I shot a snap pea at Chads head. It landed in his ear and stuck.
It took a few minutes to be able to talk again.
I’d never seen a group of adults laugh so hard than when Chad and his tennis friends had a Christmas party.
I was late and walked in to a decibel of laughter I hadn’t heard before.
When I see this picture, I still can hear it.
The affection he shared with his friends.
And lastly, if you’ve ever watched Charles Barkley’s golf tee-off, it’s most comparable to watching Chad Warren putt.
You’re happiness here with us, made me happy tonight Chaddy.
I’ll talk to you soon. xo